im over this tumblr thing and now its just something annoying that pops up on my desktop. however i think that some people have read my blogs and think that they are about them? The truth is the angry ones are about an immediate family member but i dont feel the need to name who exactly. I wouldnt ever write a whole thing abuot a close friend of mine or someone i truly value- so if you think any of these are about you… its not. sorry if you think they are thoughhh this is just a place where i can let loose about things i would never say. i deleted them anyways simply because i dont need drama coming off of something that has nothing to do with any of my friends at all. any questions please feeeeel freeee to ask away <3

SEEE YAA LATTERRR TUMBLRRR.

tech free day 7?

I HAVE SO MUCH TIME FOR ACTIVITIES AND PLAYING OUTSIDE!?

I LOVEEE IT.

-life changing-

Love, Lave

i realize its been a while since ive been on this butttt i recently gave up Twitter and Facebook in an effort to rid myself of technological dependencies/obsessions.. anywaaaahysszz i just feel like venting/explaining WHYYyyYY i chose to give them up:

Twitter: when i first got a twitter- i LOVEDD it! it was so fun to read and say whatever you wanted, also made it easier to keep up with people i dont usually see. It was also hysterical but at the same time kept me updated on life! BUT NOW- twitter has become a place for drama via “subtweet,” emotional bullshit, and all around annoyingness. Its become a place where people constantly bitch about eachother, their lives, things they dont have blahh… but more so it causes DRAMA. and i am not down. i admit im totally guilty of it and we all do have the right to “tweet” whatever we want ya know and i think we should be able to. butttt im done with it. and so im getting rid of it. :)

Facebook: Its just boring now. theres nothing really interesting on it anymore and basically its just a way to stalk people. we all stalk. dont lie… but thats weird and if i wanna keep up with my friends i wanna hang out with them or call them or hear their voice! facebook is great for so many things and so many people but im just on it waaaay too much. And im tireeed of all the annoying stuff that pops up on my newsfeed and affects my mood. like why should someone else’s things bother me? they shouldnt! and soo it too has to go.

I”ll probably crack and go back to these social networking sites, but until then im going to enjoy my break :) TECH FREEE! <3 Hope i inspired someone else to try itt.

Love, Lave

my mom might be a psycopathic bitch 90% of the time but if im half as good of a person/mother as she is i’ll be fine <3 i love her and she knows it. i dont really care if everyone else does.

isnt life a bitch when your “best friend” no longer gives a shit about you then wonders why you get mad? hah. thats a good time.

going to college is really freaking me out lately. how do i know im picking the right one?! what if i choose the wrong major?! what if i lose contact with everyone/not make friends. i bitch about nova alot but i love so many people here and its so comfortable living here.

god i just want to get out and travel the world. thats allll i want to do. and settling for a job that pays well but doesnt excite me is my biggest fear. i want my life to be exciting, meaningful, and full of happiness. Unfortunately, thats not cheap. UGH major decisions to be made.

i wish i had the courage to pursue my dreams more…

ive beeen having the weirdest damn dreams lately.. not really sure why. Hawaii two nights ago, last night something about prom and a beach? what the hell is going on…

twitter is actually entertaining and i vote everyone whose so against it but has never even try it suck it up and try something new. it might be “cool” to not have one but you dont know what youre missing till ya try it ;) just sayinggg

I love watching movies with my daddy :) he loveees the hangover!

i just feel like breaking down and crying… but suddenly i feel like theres no one to pick me back up.

I cant wait for graduation. and saying goodbye permanently to a certain person who treats me like shit then gives me a guilt trip then thinks we’re still friends. ive done too much for you- sorry you used me all up. im gone.

<3 love, lave

Okay when I hear things I disagree with for the first time my immediate reaction is super rash and loud and crazy and emotionally driven and psycho…but then about 5 minutes later I calm down and can reallly figure out my actual feelings after sorting things out in my headddd

Post one fact about yourself. Something you think nobody really knows.

Schwhyyyy notttt.

Mine.

1. I don’t really think I believe in love- and to be dependent is weak. its not a happy belief buttt whateverrr

<3love, lavee

Maybe I’m not nice to you. Maybe I don’t like you. Maybe I’m not going to tak shit from anybody including you. So would you rather I be fake to you?

I will never dislike someone without first giving them a chance. It takes a longgg time for me to open up to people but I always listen to what my friends havve to say and ill never judge them.

Maybe I am a bitch. But I care about my friends more than they’ll ever know, sorry I don’t feel the need to show that every second of every day to the world. But it seems like I’m the only one who stands by my friends even when they hurt me. If you are my friend it takes a lot for me to cut you out of my life and ill always drop everything for you when/iif you ever need me..

So call me a bitch all you want. Id rather be the person I am now than who you are ever.

………

The sun sets and the sunlight hits my face because it makes my eyes change color and that’s the only time when I don’t hate them :)

To become a better person;

I want to break every typical highschool girl stereotype. I don’t want to be fake. Mean. Inconsiderate. Ungrateful. Rude. Bitchy. Judgemental or any of those types of things.

I want to spend more time with my parents. I want to make more memories with the people I really care about. I don’t want to care about drama with friends/boys that won’t stick around anyway. I want to be closer with god. And every day I wake up I want my first thought to be about how amazingly fortunate I am. I want to find something to be happy about every single day.

Above all I want to make sure my mommy knows how much I love her every single day that I live.

<3 love lave